Welcome to the Heal With Me Diaries!

I’ve been here once before.
A different problem — but experiencing very similar feelings.

That moment of being diagnosed with something that sounds scary and confusing all at once. Turning to the internet, desperately searching for some kind of comfort. 

For reassurance that I’m going to be okay. That I’m heading in the right direction. That there will be a way forward — a way to heal and recover.

Spending hour after hour sifting through information. Reading the same things over and over again, trying to make sure I’ve left no stone unturned. 

Feeling completely overwhelmed by medical language that feels consuming and heavy. Trying to avoid rereading the scary parts — the words that make everything feel a little too real.

Hi, my name is Alice.
I’m in my late twenties, and I have one simple mission: to try and become the safe space on the internet that I always wished I had.

Like all of us, I’ve been through my fair share of struggles in my 27 years on this planet. Some have been easier than others, and some have left pretty deep scars — most of them invisible.

I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and crippling social anxiety in 2017, when I was 19. But in truth, I’d been struggling long before that — without really realising what was happening. Around the age of fourteen or fifteen, my relationship with food began to change. Disordered eating slowly crept in.

I found myself stuck in a cycle of bingeing and restricting — without even fully recognising it. Or maybe, if I’m being completely honest with myself, I didn’t want to recognise it. I was embarrassed. Ashamed. Confused by my own behaviour.

For a long time, I didn’t understand that my eating habits were directly connected to how much I was struggling emotionally. In many ways, those habits became coping mechanisms — a way to protect myself, a way to feel some sense of control in a life that felt like it was spiralling at breakneck speed… while I was nowhere near the driver’s seat.

More recently, I’ve been diagnosed with PCOS and atypical endometrial hyperplasia.

What started as a simple doctor’s appointment — just a conversation about concerns with my periods back in June 2025 — quickly turned into lots of scans and ultrasounds, more blood tests than I can count, a handful of frightening phone calls about what might be wrong, two small operations, and many, many weeks of trying with everything I had not to spiral.

Panicking every time my phone buzzed. Checking the letterbox twelve times a day. And finally, a letter from the wonderful doctor who performed the operation, confirming my diagnosis.

After months of research, reflection, and sitting with difficult truths, it’s been a painful pill to swallow to realise that years of chronic stress, anxiety, and a toxic relationship with food may have all led me to this moment.

And this series — The Heal With Me Diaries— is about what will happen next.

Throughout the Heal With Me Diaries I’ll be documenting my journey as honestly and gently as I can.

It’s about learning how to manage my PCOS in a way that supports my body rather than punishes it. About healing my relationship with food, movement, and rest. About reducing stress, regulating my nervous system, and slowly rebuilding trust with my body — instead of constantly trying to control or fix it.

Each month we will focus on a different theme, from stress and hormones, to food, body image, emotional healing, and learning how to live a full, meaningful life alongside chronic health conditions — not waiting to feel “better” before allowing myself to feel joy.

This series isn’t about quick fixes, miracle cures, or doing everything perfectly. It’s about small, sustainable changes. About listening instead of forcing. About learning what actually feels safe and supportive for me right now. 

I’ll be sharing what I’m learning, what’s helping, what isn’t, and how I’m navigating the harder days too — because healing isn’t linear, and I want this space to reflect that.

If you’re someone who’s felt overwhelmed by medical information, disconnected from your body, or been stuck in survival mode for a long time… my hope is that this series can feel like a quiet place to land. A reminder that you’re not broken, you’re not alone, and you don’t have to have everything figured out to begin.

This is me choosing to heal — slowly, honestly, and with compassion.
I don’t know exactly what this year will bring — but I know I’m choosing to show up for myself, and I’m grateful to share that journey with you.

So will all of that being said, Welcome to The Heal with me Diaries. 

I can’t wait to see you soon for our first episode.

Love Alice xx